I'm super emotional right now. I know its stupid to be this way, but thats how I roll. Mainly I'm just frustrated. Yup. Thats it.

mood: frustrated

I'm officially on schedule to work as of today. I'm so freaking nervous though! I've got 6 months experience on a busy stressful telemetry/med surg floor, but I'm still considered a "new grad".
I guess I'm nervous because I'll be traveling to so many different hospitals. I've never worked nights either. And I've been out of work for a month and I'm sitting here brushing up on my labs and skills and whatnot.
Pre-new-job-jitters really suck. I had nightmares last night. Then I couldn't sleep in because I was so worried about Trinity getting ready for school ok. She was really good about not waking me up, though I was just lying there worrying. Hopefully I'll get a nap in soon. I'll need it if I'm called in tonight.
Well... at least I'm employed.

location: The Computer Room mood: nervous

So its been a while. I kind of strayed away from Live Journal. I was cheating on it with Facebook. *gasp* I know, its terrible.
Soooo.... I was laid off my job at Tempe St. Luke's. Fuck 'em. Who needs 'em anyway. Iasis is the shittiest company to work for so it was a blessing in disguise.
I got hired at a staffing agency that is going to pay me $35-37 an hour! W00t! I'll be traveling around to several area hospitals to work when they are short staffed. I have joined the ranks of "Registry Nurse". :-)
Trinity loves being in first grade, though she does complain the work is "too easy". Thats what I get for having a super smart kid! :-)
This is going to be a tough holiday season. I'm going to miss Grandpa Jack SO much. His laugh, his stories, the fact that he'd fall asleep on the couch or in the easy chair 15 minutes post dinner. :-)
I'm sick and hoping I can manage to work once I let Maxim Healthcare know my schedule.
So I'm sitting here in my weakened state getting all nostalgic. If I wasn't on a laptop with a teeny crappy keyboard I'm reminisce like mad. That post may have to wait.
Alrighty... wasn't exactly the GREATEST update, but it was a simple one nonetheless.

location: On the couch mood: sick

As many of you know I lost my Grandfather, Jack Hart, to Alzheimers on September 19, 2009. He was an incredible man who touched the lives of all those he met.
During his life he was a member of many humanitarian groups including the Sertoma Club and the Friendship Force. In his death he continued helping others by donating his brain to Alzheimer's research.
My goal is to continue his vision. Please help to end this horrible disease that steals loved ones away one memory at a time by helping to fund the 2009 Memory Walk. Thank you.

http://memorywalk2009.kintera.org/westvalley/jackhart

My grandfather was diagnosed roughly 2 years ago with Alzheimer's. It was a devastating diagnosis for everyone, especially him. He started taking the medications available. He did really well for a while...
About a two months ago he started to slip. Forgetting words or how to make coffee. But he was still THERE. Still my grandpa.
Three weeks ago his wife Judy realized that she couldn't care for him at home any more. She found an amazing home for him with a wonderful nurse, Lucia, to take care of him.
He declined so quickly that it was tough for us to accept that the end was near. But today at 6:13 pm he passed into Glory with our Lord. It was peaceful and without pain. The man who taught me how to really live and enjoy life has now also taught me what it is to die with dignity.
Jack M Hart died on September 19th, 2009 at 6:13pm. He was a husband, father, grandfather, great-grandfather, and so much more.
Thank you Grandpa for teaching me how to live life to the fullest. How to appreciate each and every day. How to love my family. I love you, and I'll miss you. Until we meet again.

mood: crushed music: Navy cadance

This whole job situation is really pissing me off. I have graduated, kicked the NCLEX's ass, and obtained my license. I'm a registered nurse people! Now let me start working!
In a sense I'm thankful that I signed the three year contract with Iasis. They paid half my tuition and I'm to be employed by them. But they keep dragging ass and putting off my start date.
I'm sick. Some sort of death cold. Aches, runny nose, cough, sneezing, chills... let me tell ya, its just fantastic.
Ok, enough of my cheery update. :-p

mood: sick

mood: anxious

I've been so busy with school that just about everything in my life has had to take a backseat. Its been really tough, but worth it. I graduate in November and soon after I'll be able to test for my license. It feels like a dream... being this close to completing school.
Starting Tuesday I start my 6th and last semester. I'll be doing what is called a preceptorship. Basically I work alongside an experienced RN for this semester. I'll learn as much as I can while taking aptitude tests every week. I know I'll be at Phoenix St. Luke's... but I'm not sure what unit I'll be on. I requested the medical surgical floor... or the PACU (post anesthesia care unit). I'm starting to think I'd really like the ICU or the ED.
So Trinity is going to this private school... they do these Stanford achievement tests at the end of each school year. She took it at the end of her Preschool year. Her scores were amazing! In reading, word recognition, and math she scored at the level of a first grader! Her listening/story telling skills are comparable to a second grader. Her Sounds and letters are at the tail end of what is taught in Kindergarten. I can't believe how bright she is! I'm told she'll be in the "high" class for Kindergarten this fall. I'm such a proud mommy!
Ok, I promised myself I'd get my room back in order during my week off and here I sit.

mood: content

http://yourindecision.tripod.com/

So I've resorted to the wonderful world of internet to try to get money to survive this next year. I'll update it with better info soon.

mood: cold

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When the second seal is opened, you will ride forth on a red horse carrying a sword, unleashing war and destruction. Your mission is to take peace from the earth, so that man will kill one another. The color of your horse represents the blood spilled on the battlefield.

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This is my first chance to post because I've been so busy. But I want to know what your memories of September 11th were.
I was trying to sleep in because it was my day off. For some reason I couldn't and ended up with a cup of strong coffee in my hand sitting on the couch dazed and confused. Tom came rushing into the apartment and said, "Turn on the TV!" I did, just in time to see the second tower hit. I felt ill. Confused, angry, sad, numb. I looked at Tom and asked, "Who would do this?" He had to go back to work shortly after. I remember crying. I was sitting by my phone, waiting to hear anything about my flight attendent friends and friends in New York.
We were going to celebrate my mom's b-day that night. She was born on the 11th. But we didn't.

mood: contemplative

1. Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song or Album:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

10. What's your philosophy on life?

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favorite memory of us?

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they :

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Which country is your spiritual home?

19. What is your big weakness?

20. Do you think I'm a good person?

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school:

22. Describe your accent:

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Trousers or skirts?

26. Cigarettes or alcohol?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

mood: tired

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19251478?GT1=10056

At this point, I don't care if the woman had health insurance... or was even a legal resident here. The fact is, our system failed. I hope when I become a nurse I will never turn my back on a person in need. Indeed, the Hippocratic Oath is taken too lightly.
Regardless of race or status a person deserves whatever treatment necessary.

mood: nauseated

Sometimes I feel like a horrible mother. I can't afford to buy my daughter a pair of new shoes. Or new Pjs. Or much of anything else she needs (with the exception of food).
Going to school full time is tough... but I may have to consider the possibility that Trinity and I won't be able to get by unless I work as well. I don't know how I'll manage being a mom, full time student, AND working...
I tend to sit here and mentally list all the things I need. New breaks for my car, total tune-up on my car, some summer clothes for me, new shoes for Trinity, some new clothes that she needs, money to pay back my parents for their help with my extra school crap.... so many things.
I dunno... I'm so stressed out about money I think it may be affecting my health. I've been feeling icky all day today. My back hurts again. I'm tired a lot.
Something is going to have to change...

mood: stressed

See 300! Its super cool! That is all.

mood: tired